Grappling With Reality
I realize shit and write it down to be forgotten
Building a database to reference my life off of
Source is exquisite
Call that personal experience
Tough to come by these days
All living delirious
Stick to the script or just another conspiracy theorist
Planned opposition in a world of discretion
Is our purpose really that special?
Ease our minds with the bread and butter
Circus and mimes
Got you feeling complacent
You know just fine
You tell yourself you're happy within the designated line
Check it out you're successful
Model citizen
You'll conform just in time
But I don’t know man that don't sit right with me
Got an urge to share how I see my surroundings
Call it emotionally blind
Or maybe extremely in tune
Perhaps I was seeing the right hue
Maybe y'all were just a little off cue
A different perception
Maybe I see the world a little different
Or are we all that fucking insignificant
Hate to think that everything I experience and learn
Has no purpose or meaning
Why learn at all when distractions are fulfilling
Kinda like eating corn
You won't be hungry but still wont gain any nutrition
I MEAN MAN
Why do we live like the soul was deadweight
Not the source of the power we equate
Man it's scary to be you
In this day and age its revolutionary
The shit you make build or create
Is the shit you will cherish at the end of the day
Living lazy is cool I guess
Safe and easy
Is that fulfilling?
Is that really your manifest destiny?
Questions I ask myself because I like to be lazy
Tell myself i'm thinking too much
And dismiss my radical thoughts because they're hazy
And I scare myself into submission
Here’s how you fucking play
Now navigate through it
I have this whole internal argument
The pros and cons
It all feels like excuses
Scared to share my soul
Especially to sell my conclusions
Ima fucking lose it
But that's how you have to do it
Everything costs money
Putting a price on sharing how I see
Who fucking knows man maybe I could just share my art
Don't charge ya nothing
Just hope you understand
Maybe learn something too
The human condition
The NEED to be understood
What else is communication for
| got some skills that can be appreciated
Idk man tho what's my mission statement?
My creed what I set out to do
The explanation for all that I wanna give to you
A book of the bible God came to me and decreed
That this was all of the truth you have been blessed to read
Sounds a bit cocky but it resonates with me
Can't accept anything less than I'm special
How else do I endure this skin vessel
Ego is the bane of our existence yet shapes us as individuals
Grandiose ideas and unrealistic ambitions
So i'm here doing me making each interaction special
Doing what’s right especially under difficult circumstances
Wanna think for myself and exercise that freedom thing
That deceptive thing they will try and erase from human memory
What's my history?
Can you relate at all
To the feelings unorganized within me ?